More Than a Drop in the Ocean

So many in need. 

So many charities. 

How do you decide which to help?

    

How do you separate the ones who, according to reports, have people stealing money behind the scenes? How do you decide between supporting a charity that raises money for research into heart disease, because it stole your dad, or breast cancer, because the gene might be inherent in your family?

    

There are some charities that receive a huge amount of money, simply because they are the most prominent names in the headlines. Of course, they are worthy, but there are many others out there in need of funds, and how do you choose which to support? There are millions the world over who need aid from those of us who have so much more, and the efforts of Comic Relief, Sports Relief et al, have brought the tragedies taking place on a daily basis to the public’s attention – and raised huge amounts of money for them – in a way that they might not otherwise have done.

    

Many of these charities raise money for countries that have no food: where babies are dying of starvation and dehydration every minute of every day. There are millions who do not know the joy of turning on a tap and receiving fresh, clean water every day, and, while this has always struck me as something of a luxury, this week it hit me with a blinding disbelief that others do not share what we take for granted.

    

We take it for granted in our baths, showers and sanitised swimming pools; we boil our vegetables in it, sure in the knowledge that we will not be contaminated by what lurks within; it pours forth from our taps to counter a stomach upset, thirst after exercise, a hangover. 

With a one second twist of our hand, we have the greatest luxury the world has to offer, and, for the most part, we don’t even acknowledge it.

   

I have not spoken to anyone at wateraid.org, but I am urging you to spread the word and to offer help in any way you can. In particular, check out the daily life of women, on whom the onus is to collect water from miles away – and not very sanitised water, at that.

    

There are so many ways in which it is possible to become involved. Never did the Rime of the Ancient Mariner have any more poignancy than now: “Water, water, everywhere, Nor any drop to drink.”

   

Like I said, I have not spoken to anyone at this organisation, but let’s not take that turning on of our taps and having the miracle of water our forth so effortlessly into our lives, for granted.

    

Let’s make water not only a blessing, but the right, of everyone the world over.

  

    

  

  

Dallas, Dallas, Wherefore Art Thou, Dallas?

You know you’re old when the oil barons are getting younger. 

The remake of Dallas has brought us a new breed of Texan magnates who look barely out of their Lego and I don’t like them one little bit.

    

At best, Bobby’s son Christopher is Thunderbirds’ Scott Tracy after a day at the spa; at worst, Norman Bates after a week of bad bookings. JR’s son John Ross has a walrus sitting on his face and is about as sexy as . . . well, a walrus sitting on your face.

   

John Ross’s and Christopher’s fathers, who were once such magnetic personalities, are no longer appealing, either. JR’s eyebrows look as if they need their own Visa to enter the country, and Bobby looks as if he has had the kind of eye-lift that turns people Chinese overnight; in fact, his eyes appear to have been eaten by his forehead. Lucy looks as if she has spent 20 years eating all the pies she never got to consume when the wind swept the food away every morning on the breakfast terrace, and all the allegedly glamorous women make a Stepford Wife look like Personality of the Millennium.

    

I so, so wanted to like it; but it is bad. So, so bad. Lame writing, lame acting, and a lame Bobby, who keeps clutching his leg in pain, as the cancer he is trying to keep secret takes hold. Sue Ellen appears to be the only character who has survived the fallout. And Linda Gray still brilliantly plays it for the laugh it always was.

  

I first watched Dallas when it was broadcast in the UK on BBC2 in the afternoon; I think I was probably its first UK fan. Although I did not know the term soap opera when growing up, I knew it must be something very, very naughty, because my parents always sent me to my room when Peyton Place was on.

    

Never having watched Coronation Street, I took to Dallas because of the shoulder pads, the pools, the glamour. It was a world so far removed from my own in South Wales, I could fantasise about riches, fine clothes, magnificent dinners, and take joy in the knowledge that for every material wealth these people had, they were still miserable as hell. That made me happy. Being poor. With no fine clothes. And, in a bad week, rather hungry.

   

I specially liked Dallas’s annual Oil Barons Ball, where the oil magnates would gather to celebrate the industry but end up fighting and/or murdering each other. WestStar oil head honcho Jeremy Wendell always featured heavily on these occasions, though I swear he never washed his shirt from one year to the next.

    

Dallas lost its credibility with the “death” of Bobby, quickly resurrected and made the subject of wife Pam’s dream, when the ratings plummeted following the departure of Patrick Duffy, who played him.

   

The biggest problem was that the sister show, Knot’s Landing, was still in production and had a lot of episodes in the can; so Bobby’s brother Gary continued to grieve on one channel, telling everyone how momma had never been the same since Bobby’s death, and nobody ever bothered to tell him that an entire year had all been in his head.

    

But it was the ludicrousness – the complete lack of believability – that, strangely, made it work. The new mob are playing it as if they have landed parts in Henry V, and they are about as menacing as a dead mouse in a Camembert.

    

After two episodes, I’ve already wiped it from my “series record”; life really is too short. 

And I really, really don’t want to watch Bobby dying from cancer – well, not unless he emerges wet and glistening and we discover that it was Christopher’s dream after all.   

     

They'll Never Walk Alone

The desire for justice in the face of others’ wrongdoing is intense. Having recently sued an ex-landlord in LA – and won – I know. It takes it out of you, but being in the right and, most importantly, being seen to be in the right, is worth everything, in the end.

My own struggle is but a grain of sand alongside the families of the Hillsborough victims; it is not even worthy to be in the same sentence, and I mention it only because I know how all consuming my own fights for justice have always been and cannot begin to imagine what these poor people have been through in their 23 year fight to get to the truth.

    

Not only did they lose their loved ones; they had to suffer the indignity of being told that the dead were to blame for the tragic events of that day.

    

The evidence that has come to light is another heartbreak: not just the lies and deceit, but the knowledge that 41 of the victims might have been saved. Everyone who lost a relative or friend that day will spend the rest of their lives asking: Was he/she one of that 41? 

Injustice upon injustice upon injustice. 

You can only weep.

    

I have been remembering another football stadium tragedy four years before Hillsboorugh in May 1985: the fire at Bradford City, that claimed the lives of 56 fans and injured well over 200. I arrived home from shopping in Bristol, where my parents were living. I was working in London and had gone home for a weekend visit. I walked into the living room to find my father crying in his usual armchair. My brother and I are sport crazy, but Dad never watched it; nevertheless, he was visibly stunned as he watched the disaster unfold on the screen.

    

My father who, died in 1990, was a desperately sensitive man. He could not talk to me for five minutes without crying, as if he never got over the fact that I learned to speak, let alone grew up. I would always be his little girl. We were a family that cried at everything, including Lassie when we sat down to watch it after dinner on Sunday afternoons. Dad cried every time he mentioned his parents, long dead, and he had never felt able to visit their graves.

    

After the Bradford fire, new safety standards were put in place at football grounds, including the banning of new wooden grandstands. Yet what we have heard this week was that not only was Hillsborough unsafe, the authorities had known it to be unsafe for some time.

    

Also after Bradford, many police officers received commendations, bravery awards and medals; yet at the heart of the Hillsborough inquiry is the accusation that the police falsified information, following complaints about their handling of the tragedy.

    

What the hell happened? Four years apart, the tragedies could not be more different (although the subsequent Popplewell inquiry at Bradford found that the club had been warned about the accumulation of rubbish – that fuelled the fire - under the stand).

    

Twenty-three years is a long time to wait for justice – and for the Hillsborough families it’s far from over, with the likelihood of those who falsified evidence or made crucial, devastatingly bad judgments, being prosecuted. Somebody, surely, has to be accountable.

   

 It is a cliché that nothing can bring back the 96 who perished on that day; but the living hell and the fight for truth by the brave people who have fought tirelessly on their behalf must bring about a small measure of peace. 

Truth will out, they say. 

It’s just damned disgraceful that sometimes it has to take so sodding long.

    

     

Seth Macfarlane - I Love You!

Come on, people - lighten up! That Boobs song at the Oscars was hilarious because, let's be honest, bare boobs get ratings. It was a funny joke about the industry. Anyway, As a tribute to my hero, I am re-printing the adulatory piece I wrote a few months back. And if you don't like it . . . Tough titty (as we say in the UK).

 Seth Macfarlane, I love you.

No, honestly. I really, really love you. 

I love your work, your principles, your voice and, last night, I heard you sing live, met you and had my photo taken with you. 

And now, I love you more.

    

My friends on Twitter have been despairing of my obsessive attempts to get close to the brilliant creator of Family Guy, American Dad and The Cleveland Show. On Monday night, having failed to obtain a ticket for Seth’s appearance at the Proms, I stayed in London, hoping to get a ticket for his show at Ronnie Scott’s.

    

Seth was in town promoting his album Music is Better Than Words – a fantastic collection that displays not only his extraordinary voice, but his love of Swing music.

    

When I was living in LA, I tried for two years to get an interview with him. If someone had told me to rescue a trapped mongoose from a Siberian salt mine using only a needle and thread, it could not have been more difficult.

   

His people did not contact my people, but that is maybe because I had no people, and a single small woman – even one as feisty as myself – doesn’t cut the mustard in the City of Angels.

    

His people in the UK were no better. They offered to deliver a letter, a gesture that both pissed me off (with them already having failed to grant me an interview in the US) and made me even more determined to get a missive to him through my investigative skills in trying to pinpoint where he might be.

    

Would he be staying at the Savoy? Too formal for him, I reckoned. Family Guy’s Brian might like it there, especially the American Bar, and I could picture him on a stool, holding court, but I couldn’t imagine Stewie roaming the hallways.

    

A Marriott? Seth doesn’t need the points; in fact, he could probably buy the Marriott chain and still have enough loose change left over to buy the Royal Albert Hall.

    

The stress of trying to pinpoint Seth’s accommodation was taking its toll. I fell out of the cheap single bed I was in at London’s Groucho Club, tossing and turning, trying to think my way into the great man’s thoughts about his hotel preferences.

    

So where might he eat? Would it be the grossly over-rated Ivy? Or Soho House, the sister club of the fabulous rooftop venue in LA? Was he more of a Joe Allen person, scoffing potato skins and burgers?

   

I did enough research to patent a Where is Seth? boardgame.

    

How hard could it be? I took to Google, which I have come to regard as a legal, efficient means of feeding my obsessions. It took under a minute to find that Seth would also be singing at Ronnie Scott’s on 30^th August, so I extended my London stay and contacted the famous jazz club.

    

Sold out. Not only was the event sold out, it had been sold out since something like 1763.

    

I cried. I sulked. I took to Twitter and Facebook, begging somebody to take pity on me. I texted my friend Stephen Fry, who informed me that he had two tickets, but that they had been very hard to come by. I Tweeted Seth, told him I was on my knees, begging. I took to phoning Ronnie Scott’s on an hourly basis, just in case they had any returns. They told me it was “extremely unlikely”. Then I took to visiting the Box Office, where the negative response was the same. I went to see Ted, Seth’s first film, just because it made me feel closer to him.

    

On Thursday, I rang Ronnie Scott’s and was told that, occasionally, tickets are available on the door, and that I should return when they opened at 6pm. I did. Then at 6.30. And at 7. And at 7.30. And at 8. 

I felt like Little Orphan Annie, albeit Little Orphan Annie who had optimistically donned her party dress, feeling, in her gut, that everything would come all right in the end.  

    

I returned to the Groucho Club, sobbing into my glass of wine. The only thing that could possibly work now would be if Stephen’s partner were to be stuck down by a mystery virus at the last minute and Stephen would remember my pleas.

    

The text came at 8.08pm. Stephen Fry. Good news. His partner had come home, collapsed on the sofa, and was too exhausted to go to the event. He was happy for me to have his ticket. 

Be glad of what you wish for!  (But get well soon, Stevie).

Now, not only did I have a ticket for Seth, I was a guest of the most brilliant mind and wit I have ever encountered. OMG! I cried. I sobbed. With joy. With relief. I felt as if I had reached the top of Everest in a pair of skating boots.

    

My tears did not stop. The band took my breath away with a range of talent I have never heard gathered in one room. I am sitting opposite Stephen Fry. STEPHEN BLOODY FRY, whose knowledge about music is already astounding me. 

And then there’s Seth, who walks on and moves me to rare emotions that soar through every vein.

Awe. Admiration. Love. 

Love of his enormous talent in so many areas; love of his creativity; love of his achievements at such a young age; love of the familiar - the animated characters of his shows, coming to life when the voice of Stewie squeezes out of this fresh-faced, exquisitely dressed man, who is a mere 38. And, when he smiles and opens his mouth to sing, love of a personality that exudes warmth, brilliance and a justified confidence that makes you in no doubt that you are in the presence of greatness. 

His voice is pure, beautiful, soulful. He handles hecklers with a cutting, yet professional charm that leaves no one in any doubt who is in charge. And then there’s STEPHEN BLOODY FRY, too. Sorry, I already said that.

    

This was, without doubt, one of the best nights of my life. Two weeks ago, I was crying with loneliness in a Spanish bar, contemplating two small slices of sweating cheese and wondering whether life was worth living.

    

Yes, it is. 

As Stephen, who has battled depression, said: there is always something to live for.

   

Family, friends, and nights like Seth Macfarlane at Ronnie Scott’s. 

And sometimes, yes: music is better than words.    

Everyone I Know is Dead

There is no one in the George Bar when I rush there shortly after my plane lands. 

Twenty-five years ago, when the Evening Standard paid my expenses, it was the hotel I was in for the duration of the annual Edinburgh Television Festival, which took place over the August Bank Holiday weekend.

    

This year, there is no one paying me a cent, and I am in student lodgings with no hairdryer, no fan to cool the blisteringly hot room, no WiFi and . . . oh, so many other complaints too numerous to mention. 

And, more to the point, there is no one in the George Hotel bar, because the bar is no more. It is a panel of wood along the wall. 

Locked. Sealed. Gone. A Silver Jubilee’s worth of history lies behind it, and I can only cry as I make my way to the soulless replacement that has taken its place a corridor away.

    

Everyone I know is dead. Or so it seems. David Fraser, my good friend from the miserable year I spent at Lancaster University, studying for an MA in Creative Writing; Andy Allan: adorable, gorgeous Andy, who died of cancer just a short time ago; the brilliant and unassuming Geoffrey Perkins . . . So many people gone. 

So many memories.

   

I  was 28 when I attended my first festival in 1987. I had landed the job of TV critic on the London Evening Standard and was delirious with excitement at arriving in a world that seemed to offer me everything I had hoped for when I had moved to London three years previous, stars in my eyes but on the dole.

   

 I wrote five columns a week: watching the box for 12 hours a day (there were no DVDs), writing my copy longhand (I couldn’t afford a typewriter), and filing my copy, verbally, to a copy-taker at 7am. Looking back, it was gruelling; but at the time, I thought I was the luckiest person in the world.

  

Channel 4 made a programme about my life as a TV critic; I was in demand from broadcasters who offered me free wine; I interviewed Sooty - on set, no less. And I got paid to go to the Edinburgh TV Festival.

   

 In those days, sessions took place in different venues around the George Hotel. En route, you would make new contacts, forge friendships, and meet for lunches that would invariably mean that you missed all the afternoon sessions. The Saturday afternoon Chinese was a big one for journalists, but when I go there this year, it is another Italian: one of a chain, and I recall the long afternoons of fellow journalists Charlie Catchpole, John Millar and Sue Carroll, who sadly lost her battle to cancer earlier this year.

    

The new generation now is a coffee-drinking bunch who won’t be seen dead with a glass of wine in their hands before 6pm. They are too nervous to ask questions at the end of sessions – I could not believe the number of sessions I attended that finished before time, owing to the lack of audience participation. These people are different. We were then. This is now.

   

But although I feel sad, I rejoice in their enthusiasm and the passion they are bringing to this truly great medium. They ask for my advice; they speak about their ideas with conviction; they want to learn, grow and deliver a message to a whole new audience.

    

At the end of the festival, my tears at my own loss have turned to joy in the knowledge that the future of this great industry is assured. I, and we, the class of 1987, have a new role to play, and it is no less valuable than the one we fulfilled over two decades ago. 

The same. 

Only different.   

 

  

Matt Bomer a Christian Shock!

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Is Matt Bomer too openly a Federal Agent and professional conman to play Christian Grey in the movie version of the book Fifty Shades of Grey?

    

Of course he is. Anyone who watches White Collar knows the reality, and the idea that he could put his day job on hold to pretend to be someone he is clearly not is, of course, ludicrous.

    

I have to be honest, upon hearing that he was being considered for Christian, I was shocked. How can you have a man wearing an ankle tag, stripping off and slapping a woman around? Anastasia would be bound to notice and comment upon it – “Hey, I can’t wait to get those handcuffs on and have you beat me black and blue, but what’s with the leg jewellery?” Talk about putting a dampener on the proceedings.

   

Heck, it’s like a man who can’t walk on water being asked to play Jesus. 

If I were writing a film about the Son of God, I would insist that the casting director check out the individual’s credentials for the role. After the walking on water bit was established, I would insist that he fulfil other criteria essential to convince us that he is Jesus. 

Was he born in a stable? Was his mother a virgin? Can he turn water into wine and wine into blood? Can he transform a couple of sardines and a baguette into a feast for 5000? Can he persuade a dozen fishermen to leave their families and go on a road trip? Most important of all, can he rise from the dead? 

Unless the actor’s life completely resonated with the character I had written, he would not get the part.

    

Robert Powell would never have landed the part of Jesus had he not displayed all these qualities at the audition, and the fact that he is still with us is evidence that he really did rise from the dead. Rumours of a Second Coming have, however, been greatly exaggerated.

    

Similarly, Daniel Radcliffe had obviously served a long apprenticeship as a wizard before he landed the role of Harry Potter. How else could he have mastered all those tricks? And if bicycles were not really able to fly, what would be the point of watching ET?

    

The importance of art mimicking life to the letter provides a particularly pertinent point when it comes to casting gay men as straight and vice versa. Could David Hyde Pierce have delivered so convincing and hilarious a performance, lusting after Daphne in Frasier, if he were gay? Of course not. It was clearly something that only a full-blooded heterosexual hunk could have mustered.

    

Would How I Met Your Mother be remotely funny if it contained gay people purporting to be straight, all in the name of entertainment? How ridiculous would that be?  

   

If people start pretending to be people they are not, where does that leave us as a society? It’s like telling someone they have licence to be a chameleon, casting a spell over the lives of others to help them suspend their disbelief. What sort of a world would it be, if everyone went around kicking reality in the teeth?

    

Before long, you would have special schools set up to teach people the art of this deception. People might start paying to go and see it, even. They might start giving out awards for some people doing it better than others.

    

So, Mr Bomer, I find it inconceivable that, having returned to New York to continue your work with the Feds, you could convince me that you spend your days in a basement, constructing wooden crucifixes on which to fix women with ropes and chains.

    

That is a job for a man with psycho tendencies. Someone who might conjure up the image of a hungry rodent in a woman’s vagina, feasting on her sexual organs to induce a slow death, for example. But you would have to ask Bret Easton Ellis about that.

  

If this deception thing ever takes off – stranger things have happened - I have no doubt you could pull off the part of Christian Grey brilliantly, and I would pay good money to see it. 

In the meantime, back in the real world, look after Peter. He’s a good friend.